The roller coaster of emotions is exhausting. Some days I am ok with it all, some days I’m an emotional wreck and some days I’m angry. I am still so broken for my little daddy. He didn’t and does not deserve any of this. He may not have been a great husband, but he was and is the most incredible daddy God ever gave a kid. I have no idea what Dennis is like but I feel he’s probably a jerk judging by him continuing to ghost me and not give me any medical history.
My half siblings? I can only assume the same although I want to believe in the best in all of the Webers. I often wonder if they even know the truth. Did Dennis lie and tell them I am not his and let them believe I am a cousin. Did he tell them the truth? What do they know. I recently looked at Dana’s social media to which she made a post to her son she lost a few years ago. I noticed one of the people who commented was the person who reached out to me in confidence when this started. So apparently this was Dana reaching out. That makes me believe they know. So if that’s the case either they don’t want to know me at all or they have promised Dennis they wouldn’t. I don’t think I could have that kind of alliance to my dad even as awesome of a human as he is. I would want to know my sibling.
Because I told Dennis I wouldn’t reach out to his kids any more, I won’t. But in time I will not continue to stay silent.
Still no apology from my in-laws either. Which the longer it goes the more pissed I get about the whole thing. Poor Andy is just broken at his parents betrayal.
This whole thing is so fucked up. How is this even my life? The song Make it well by Mercy Me says “Keep this heart from hardening like stone, show me through the pain, there’s reason still to pray”. Man I feel that. I feel so abandoned by everyone, even God.
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